Wednesday, August 27, 2008
I believe that the title of this blog says it all. Trusting God is easy to say but doing it can be a totally different feat. My husband and I have been married for 2 and 1/2 years. We decided that in April we were going to try to start a family. We're both young and healthy... my dr. said that we would be pregnant in no time. End of story. Well it is now the end of August and we are still not pregnant. Last month I stitched dr.'s and am extremely happy with my new choice. Dr. Collins is a wonderful woman and dr. that struggled with fertility issues herself. She quickly got the ball rolling on testing. My husband was checked and he is fine. I had an HSG done that determined that my left tube is blocked with what they think is endometrosis. I have surgery scheduled for Sept. 8th to have it removed. All of this background information to tell you that while it is always easy to trust God when things are going the way you want them too; it is much harder to hold on to that trust with things are not going the way you had hoped. I know, without a doubt, that God has plans for us. And it has taken me several months to realize that it's okay that His plans didn't match mine and my husbands. We only want His plans for us anyways. I know that we are struggling with this because there is a reason for it. This process has brought my husband and I so much closer. It has also brought me much closer to my faith and has strengthend it tremendously. I still needs TONS of work and strive to become closer to God each day. It is a rough and long road but it is all worth it.