Its been a very long time since I have logged on here. So much has went on in my life that blogging was the absolute last thing on my mind. I'm sorry for abandoning the readers that I had and I can't imagine that there is any of you left after my 5 month hiatus. But I am glad to be back. I missed sharing my thoughts. I have always used my blog as an online journal for myself and while my life may be drastically different then I had planned its still my life and I still have so much to be thankful for. So here goes... I am divorced. Ugh, I absolutely LOATHE seeing that word. I hate saying it and I certainly dispise all that it means. But it is my reality now and has been for several months. At 29, I was supposed to be celebrating my sixth anniversary. Instead I am alone. Well, not really alone. I have amazing parents and a wonderful extended family. My friends have been there for me through everything and while I appreciate it more then they will ever know; there is still a huge void in my life. So I'm starting over; a new life and a new blog. I have struggled with deciding whether or not to delete my posts from the past 3 years and just start over competely but I'm not going to do that. Everything that has happened in my life so far will effect everything that happens in the future. Those are my memories and I want to keep them.
I can't continue with this blog without letting you know that the seperation and divorce was 100% my fault. Chris was an amazing husband and I still love him more then anything in the world. We tried multiple times to work through things but I waited too long to realize that the only thing that mattered was saving my marriage. There is not a thing from the past that I wouldn't do differently if given the chance. I don't want to be single. I absoultely loved being married. I am not one to go out to parties or clubs and I certainly have no idea how to meet new people. That is the absolute last thing I want to do right now anyways.
As I said earlier, I am sure that most of my readers have long since given up on me and I'm fully aware that my new revelation may run a few off itself. If you are still reading though I invite you to stick around for this new journey.