Wednesday, November 5, 2008

For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace. ~ I Corinthians 14:33

Yesterday another devotion spoke right to me. BTW, if I haven't mentioned that I love Joyce Meyer's New Day New You devotional then I am telling you now. I wake up each morning excited to see what that day will talk about and so many of hers have spoken straight to my heart and the situation that we are going through. I am not going to share the entire thing with you but I did want to highlight some of my favorite parts:

"When you trust God, you can relax and enjoy life. You don't have to go through life worrying and trying to figure out how to solve all your problems. Think about all the things that you have worried about in your life and how they have all worked out. That ought to help you realize that worry and reasoning are a waste of time and energy. stop worrying, Stop complicating your life by trying to figure out everything. Just admit that you don't know, that you are not able, that you need God. Then go on living and enjoy life while God is giving you the answers"

Wow, that last part says it all. "Go on living and enjoy life while God is giving you the answers". I don't like to make all of my posts about infertility but because it has basically consumed all of my thoughts it is hard not to talk about. I feel (and myself included) that so many women struggling with IF stop living their life. Instead we are so consumed with the future and when we will be sharing in the joys of motherhood and having a family. I am declaring that from today forward I am going to live in the NOW. Not tomorrow or next month or next year. Not when I am a mommy but RIGHT NOW. While I am a wife to a wonderful husband, daughter to 2 loving parents, sister to my best friend, friend, teacher, daughter-in-law, sister-in-law, aunt, coach, etc. There is plenty of time for me to be a mom. Hubs and I are still young and we need to enjoy the time that we have while it is just the two of us.

This blog has connected me with so many wonderful ladies that I would have never met otherwise. There are women that are going through the same things that I am facing. There are plenty that have been doing it a lot longer than I have. I pray for these women each day, usually multiple times a day and I know that they are praying for me. I believe that I am going through this struggle for a reason and that one day I will be a mom and that I will be a better one because of it. My struggles with IF will not only make me a better mom; they have already made me a better Christan and wife. And I feel that that is all part of God's plan.


Keri said...

I love your post and I started the feeling the same way after my miscarriage. I learned that I need to appreciate what God has given me now.

You've been teaching three years--wow! Congrats--I know you have been working hard and I strive to educate those around me that say "why on earth would you quit teaching". I do accounting work in a law firm now. It is not nearly as exciting as being surrounded by kids everyday--but it works for me!

Jenna said...

I stopped over from the Prayer Blog to let you know that you are in my prayers! IF is so took Chris and I two years, and we spent a year and a half with an RE. I will be praying for your miracle!